My life is not my own, and I thank God for it


So you may have noticed I took a little hiatus from social media. I'm back but things are different now. If you've tried to contact me and haven't heard anything, I apologize. Reach out again and I'll get back to you when possible. My life was a scrambled up mess just a few weeks ago and I thought I had everything figured out. To the world I'm sure everything looked perfect. But it was far from it. Now I see clearer than I ever have in my life and know that I'm nowhere close to having all the answers. But I can rest assured knowing I'm not supposed to have all the answers, just one.

Social media isn't the only thing I put down. I stepped away from everything in my life for a bit. Stepped back and gained perspective on a lot of things. Prioritized. I have a beautiful life full of innumerable blessings, but I couldn't see them because of the fog I was in. I have a great family, great friends, a great job and a great opportunity to reach people and affect their lives in a positive way. All of that was lost on me as I chased my tail looking for any sort of happiness that this world could offer me. You are supposed to have dreams, aspirations, ambition, a good work ethic but everything in moderation. And all these things in excess will distract you. Your successes will lead to boasting and this false belief that you can run your own life. Friends I'm here to tell you, that's a lie we've been sold by this world. It's a short and instantaneous drop from the top to rock bottom. And when you hit rock bottom and realize your parents can't pick you up, your friends can't pick you up, your wife can't pick you up, your husband can't pick you up, it's a terrifying feeling and one that can leave you feeling hopeless. But if you can quiet your mind, if you're fortunate enough to have the right people in your life to point you in the right direction, you'll hear a still small voice. Deep within your soul saying this isn't your battle to fight. You are not alone. I'm here for you. "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33). Those are the words of Jesus Christ, they're not mine. But now they have a place in my heart and always will.

Suffering is a stumbling block for most when coming to Christ. How could a God who loves us make us suffer? Our suffering is so often a result of our own decisions. Decisions we made without consulting with God first. Without asking if our decisions were in accordance with "...his good, pleasing and perfect will" for our lives. (Romans12:2). Suffering is the only way we can truly become reliant on God. If we all walked through this world on cloud 9, we would boast thinking that we were the answer and that we needed no one. That's not how it works. We are not built to be independent but dependent on our Heavenly Father. God could easily make us abide by His will. But that's not how love works. He wants us to choose Him. To choose His will and have faith that His plans for our lives are perfect. Faith is belief without proof. There's nothing I can tell you to convince you that I'm telling the truth other than there has been a change in me that I have longed for all my life. An awakening. And that's all the proof I need. I took the reigns of my own life a long time ago and quickly ran off the road. After working tirelessly for years to get back on the right track on my own, I finally realized it was hopeless and I laid those reins down. God picked them up and said hold on for the ride, life is about to get a whole lot prettier.

Don't misunderstand me. There will still be trials and tribulations until the end of time. Jesus isn't a quick fix. It takes time to heal. I will still face battles. But I know now that those troubles that lie ahead of me can’t conquer my life. My soul cannot be defeated. "What then shall we say to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?" (Romans 8:31) No one. No foe on earth or from hell can't beat us with God on our side.

I'm in a place that I never knew I could be mentally, emotionally and spiritually. My relationship with God is stronger than it's ever been. I've been in church since I was born. I heard all the songs and read all the words but never truly heard any of it until I was lying flat on my back and looking for a savior. And my savior reached down and lifted me higher than I've ever been. I don't have all the answers. But I have the one I need.

If you want to talk about anything, feel free to email me at [email protected] If you want to experience something that will change your life, click the link below. It's a series taught by Pastor Chris Hodges. It's not about a pastor, it's not about church. It's about a relationship that I have and that I want to ensure everyone on Earth has. This series is entitled Detox and it's currently in part 3 of a 4 part series (the final message will be delivered this Sunday LIVE online).

By the grace of God the timing of this series coincided with my own personal crisis. I have found a lot of strength and wisdom in these messages, which are founded on the Bible where so much strength and wisdom lie in wait for us everyday. All we have to do is open our ears, eyes and most importantly our hearts to what He's been trying to tell us all our lives amidst all the distractions… You're not alone. I'm here to help. All you have to do is turn to me and I'll be your savior. "I am the way and the truth and the life..." John 14:6.

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